Unfinished Business

My Fashion Show (life) resumes....as a Blogger that is......in reality, it has never stopped!!

Today I was inspired to resume some of my writing...or journaling, or scripting as I like to call it here in my "Life is a Fashion Show" blog.  I fought off the urge for a while, knowing that I had other things to do......book work is always looming, housework is never done, I have close to a million projects going on at any given moment......

As those who know me know, and if you are reading this Blog and don't, I will tell you, that I am always looking for ways to grow and improve - I love taking classes, reading books, watching videos or documentaries to expand my thoughts, and of course travelling to expand my horizons and the way that I look at and see the world.  

Today was no different - I opened up the current book that I am reading as part of a Class that I recently enrolled in and proceeded to do the task that it suggested.  The task was to write down all of the 'limiting' things that my parents told me I 'was'  as a child growing up.  Things like;  you don't work hard enough, you are lazy, you are messy, you are irresponsible.....  Then it said to expand even further and write down those things told to me by my siblings, peers, teachers, co-workers...I continued to write things like; you aren't good enough, you are skinny, your nose it too big, you are flat chested, you are too emotional, etc......at first it was difficult, but as I started pulling up those memories it seemed to get easier....before I knew it I had 2 large pages filled with negative tings that I had been told i "was".  Now the book didn't say what I was to do with those thoughts, only to sit and reflect on the feelings that surrounded them.  To reflect on the way that I felt about myself either as a result of or in spite of the words I had written.  Although a lot of those opinions or words that were said to me still seem to resonate, a lot of them I have laid to rest where they belong - in my past.  

I had watched a video (and shared it on Facebook if you would like to see it) about this very thing earlier today......how we become what people tell us we are, but also that we have the ability and power to rewrite our life - change our beliefs, grow into what we want to become, or direct our own Fashion Show so to speak.  That our "I Am" statements become our truths so we should make them great ones.   

I know that my parents, and pretty much everyone in my life have only ever told me things to make me a better and more fulfilled person.  When I was told that I wasn't responsible, they wanted to encourage me to be more so.  When I was told that I was messy, they only wanted to motivate me to become more neat and organized.  When I was told that I wasn't good enough, it was done so that I would practice harder and become better......

So - I decided to take action - to change my thoughts, to step up to the challenge that was laid out for me today and get busy working on my own thoughts and beliefs.  I chose to burn all of those remarks and write my present script in a more loving and nurturing manner.  The picture of the fire below is of those very writings from my past going up in smoke.  It didn't happen easily - I had to nurture the flames, blow on them a bit, use a couple of matches when the flames dwindled, add a bit of kindling...... Much the same as getting those thoughts out of our heads, one has to keep adding fuel (matches) to combat the set backs, thinking good thoughts (kindling) to replace the bad, motivation and encouragement (blowing on the coals) to keep us moving forward.......

I have so much "Unfinished Business" that I want to attend to, Things that I have carried around for years that need to be laid to rest.  New lands to discover, ideas to be explored and people to meet.  The weight of the past will most certainly try and sneak into my present from time to time, but for now, I am proactive, I am determined, I am capable, I am smart, I am talented, I am beautiful, I am loved, and I will keep doing what I need to do to make myself and the world around me the best darned Fashion Show that I am capable of creating!!

Thanks for the read - I hope it inspires or motivates you to be the "Best You" as well!!

The fire that burned all of the limiting beliefs that I had been carrying around with me since childhood.